Deja Vu

 When you experience Deja vu do you ever wonder what you failed to learn the first time?  Like seriously, what lesson did I miss? Here it is - one of the girl's senior year with all the activities and facing medical challenges. 

So here I sit, upset with God again for allowing this challenge! Thank you Lord that You, Lord, are big enough to love me even if I am mad at circumstances. Thank you Lord that You alone are sovereign and in control over the unknown. You are still King of our Hearts as we walk through the inconclusive, the unknown because it is NOT unknown or inconclusive to You, Lord! 

Alan's scan got moved up by a month because of some questionable symptoms that made us wonder about infection in that "pocket" again.  So today's results left his oncologist and us scratching our heads. 

There is some tissue thickening... this tissue on the back side of his bladder has been thickening for a while but this time radiology recommends further analysis. Not sure if it's because of the rate of increase, which in 2025 had been markedly faster than 2024 or the size now or that the radiologist is just feeling extra cautious for no reason or if someone just wants to bill insurance for more stuff! 

BUT this tissue is in proximity of the tumor (Mooney, removed in 2022) and the infection. So there is that. Reasons to wonder.

Dr. Dude (Dr. Morris) has no indication whether it is cancer or not. So he is pulling in Alan's previous surgical team, Wise One (Dr. Fournier), Big Sis (Dr. You), and Van Gogh (Dr. Shay).  Once they have all discussed, we will hear back on a proposed plan to figure out the unknown!

Right now we deeply covet your prayers. We know God already knows what is going on with tissue. Prayers for quick clarity of a plan and clear answers. Prayers for peace and patience in the waiting. Prayers for timing of testing and whatever that testing is. Prayers for a lack of anxiety in our house.