This song was so hard for some much of the last 8.5 years. Maybe times I couldn't sing it at all, literally the words would not physically come out of my mouth.
My heart questioned whether that was really true or not. It got better for the last 3 years and I have been able to sing it easily. So when we started this season of uncertainty in Sept, the word started to fail me again. My heart started to question.
I know in my head that God never fails. But I have posted before about this. I question if He is going to fail me with my version of what I believe should occur. That doesn't actually mean God failed. He didn't. My version wasn't His will. And if I am honest, I grapple with wanting His will and my image in my head of what "should be."
This week in the midst of Band craziness, God showed His mercy and favor upon us.
Alan's biopsy showed fibrosis and NO cancer! Translation: the Unnamed Blob is scar tissue from the chronic inflammation that his body has had since the MOAS in Oct 22.
Dr. You was incredibly reassuring. We will continue to monitor him per guidelines for all cancers cause by Lynch Syndrome. But there is not another recurrence! My version matched God's will this time!
Thank you Father God!
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