Security

As women we were created with a need for security. When the fruit was eaten, that desire became a potential area for sin. Our security as women is suppose to come from our relationship with God, the security of walking in the Garden of Eden with Him. 

When Satan tempted Adam and Eve and sin entered the Garden, there were consequences - gee, consequences for disobedience, novel concept!

The separation between God and us is the most significant consequence of all! Our desire for security can only be filled by true intimacy with Him. But as women we try to fill security with the nearest male we can find. As little girls, we have desire security in our Daddies. As teenagers, we long for boyfriends and tend to find security in those relationships. As married women, we expect our husbands to provide security whether that be physical, financial or emotional. If no man is in our life, we find security in our home.

Unfortunately men are just like us, sinful. Some fathers, boyfriends, husbands are not worthy of our trust. And for those of you that have suffered greatly at the hands of abuse from one of the men in your life, I am so sorry. I pray you find complete healing. 

OUR HEAVENLY FATHER is worthy of this trust. He loves you. He is worthy of our trust. He is our ultimate security. 

Four years ago, our lives were turned upside down as you all know. Cancer invades every aspect of our lives, as I have emphasized before. My security was rocked as we faced and still face cancer and the odds of death. 

As we moved into our home on February 3, 2017, my home became a large part of my security. It's been my peace and comfort - my place to hide away from the world. It's been where we have had incredibly hard conversations, amazing fun, fabulous laughs, teary nights and comfortable rest. 

Last night as I sobbed and sobbed about our present living situation, God stopped my tears with a MASSIVE reevaluation. My "security" has been placed in my husband and my home. And for the last many years, I have been walking in faith through this cancer journey but still not fully trusting God with my security. 

Yes, we need to have a place to live on April 30th and right now we still don't. But is it our residence that provides me with a sense of security? Or am I fully trusting Him with security?

So today I commit to walk more closely with Him and trust that He is all I need for my security. That our house can be gutted or in state of repair or all fixed, but my house doesn't provide me with security. ONLY God can do this! So no more tears, only trust!